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Friday, October 9th, 2009
8:02 pm	Well... It's 8:00, Angie should be leaving as soon as she finds her satchel. I REALLY REALLY wanted to go and role-play, but I have a really bad headache, am having some pinching in my chest when I breathe, and keep having coughing fits. The damp will probably not be a good overnight matchup if I don't want to get worse. Damn. I'm packed and everything. One more day and I probably would have been ok, if not great. I won't say I'm heartbroken, but I am very sad that I will miss it. I hope everyone fills me in on the good parts and I will be at the November event. (Comment on this)
5:36 pm	I Hate Subject Lines Anyway, it's about 5:37pm, Ang is still getting around for the LARP, no worries, since I'm still not sure I should go. I'm worried about coming back with Pneumonia, since I am getting over my 2nd illness in three weeks. Having some trouble breathing deeply, so combat is pretty much out, packed some paper just in case I have to sit around doing nothing. AND I remembered to grab three dragon ante in case Travis forgets theirs. I still don't think I should go. I'm feeling about 60% capacity AND I have to be back by noon or so on Sunday so I can keep up with Dave's 4th ed RPGA module we are in the middle of. If I can't make that happen, then I have to get Rich to come and get me, probably tomorrow which he won't be thrilled about, but will do. But I'll regret it if I don't I suppose, so I guess I'd rather be damned for doing than damned for not. But I don't want to DIE or be extra sick because of it either. Saw the original Wicker Man (early 70s I think?) a few weeks ago on Demand free movies. It has Christopher Lee in it! Anyway, it had some creepier moments in it than the remake, but not as scary overall. I think we were supposed to be shocked that the islanders were all "godless heathens" (Main character's quote), which might have worked well in the time-period it was made an all. I found it very hard to sympathize with the main character, a British cop/investigator, since he spends most of the movie loudly criticizing the islanders for not being Christians and not raising their children as Christians. Don't get me wrong, I felt bad that the dude got burned alive at the end and all, but I still wasn't real sympathetic to his outlook and overstated opinions and criticism. Made it hard to empathize with his situation, since he was such a dick about everything. Little pissed at Earth Eternal at the moment...they implied that everything in the cash shop (It will be a free game) would be available in-game as well. Now I'm getting the sense that they mean "oh, well you can buy credits in-game from other players to buy things from the cash shop!" since another player mentioned that's what they've done in one of their other games. *rollseyes* I don't mind shortcuts for people who want to buy things, and I'm more than willing to spend some money to support them, but I don't like being "forced" to purchase digital items with real money because there isn't any other way to get them. (Comment on this)
Monday, September 28th, 2009
12:03 pm	So, haven't done anything... So, I haven't been doing anything and I haven't gotten started on anything yet. Did a LITTLE bit of sketching over the weekend, but I tried yesterday for a couple hours (Albeit, not at a good time) and didn't get anything workable out of my time. I need to knuckle down with my schedule. It's really windy and DH has to go waaaay up north for awhile to work on something, which kind of bums me out. I hope it doesn't take long and he can come back soon. Maybe I'll go for a walk out in the wind. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 9th, 2009
5:27 am	5:27 AM So, I'm sitting here, needlessly wasting time, kind of watching MASH on TV land while playing a game. It's an episode where MASH 4077 gets an ungodly amount of tongue depressors (wanna say...5,000?), so Hawkeye builds a "monument" of sorts honoring all the fallen soldiers out of the excess after they can't get rid of them otherwise. Some folks get wind of it (including a recruiter), and once Hawkeye finds out that the recruiter wants to use it as publicity to get more folks to join up for the war, Hawkeye blows it up before they can get a picture of it, siting "senseless violence." The irony? Commercial immediately follows: "join the army." LAWL. (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 6th, 2009
5:13 am	Keep Going What is it that I say? I think it's "Everything is going to be okay, even if it isn't." Clinging to that like a drowning man. It's going to be. (Comment on this)
Friday, August 28th, 2009
1:47 am	The French... The french totally have weird, sexy commercials. The amount of pretty obvious symbolism and whatnot made me laugh so freaking hard. Then I remembered it was an orangina commercial, and just laughed harder. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ck14LKBI9GM I'm totally into anthropomorphics, and this commercial still made me go WTH?! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 25th, 2009
4:55 pm	DH So, DH's doctor's appt today did not go great. His blood pressure is hella-bad and the doctor said he was honestly shocked that DH hasn't had a heart attack or stroke yet, it's THAT bad. Going to require some major lifestyle changes and he better effing do it. I told him he can whine all the eff he wants, but he HAD his turn to make it right on his own and proved he can't, so now, instead of going gradual, he has to drop 50 points in two weeks. (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 23rd, 2009
12:54 am	Kitty pt 3 Just realized I never updated on kitty's condition here, whoops. We brought her home on Thursday and she just got her last painkiller today, they came in syringes that she is supposed to eat. They must be flavored, because she has no problem taking it. The antibiotics have been another story, since we have to pin her down, pry her mouth open, shove the pill in the back of her throat, and then hold her mouth shut and massage her throat until she swallows. We have been trying to stuff them in a treat but she just spits it out. So, 14-ish days of that. When we went to get her, she was SO MAD! :D The vet tech said she had been "just awful" all morning. DH and I replied that she must have been feeling better, since the day before she had been too scared to be nasty. She's been eating ad drinking, but she won't relax, and I can't keep her from jumping (She isn't supposed to). I've tried to block off favorite jumping places, but it doesn't keep her from all of them. She is super needy and noisy still, but was SLIGHTLY more independent today. In fact, she is out with DH right now instead of me. The stitches are on the inside, so she can't chew them out and didn't have to wear a cone. But she lets me look at them if I lift her front legs up, and I don't think they look too bad (infected or pus or anything like that). I have a few more weeks of work left, so I should be able to cover the costs. I am so burned out from the last two weeks. Tired and not really managing anything fun or productive. Headaches and vertigo again too. Gonna be okay, even if it's not. (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 22nd, 2009
12:44 pm	Well, Eff Me... Anyone remember mt post from about a month ago where I said I would play WoW again if they did certain things? *cries* Well, they are. I'm effed. The Worgen are so stinking cute to me... Also they are opening up more classes for more races. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 19th, 2009
7:14 pm	Kitty pt2 Kitty came through surgery ok. We should be able to get her tomorrow. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:49 am	Cat I think my kitty has pyometra, a fairly serious infection of the uterus. She was very meowy when we got home, and hanging around me, wanted to spend a lot of time with me, which I thought was just either her going into heat, or just really happy to see us. I thought she puked a little in one of the beds, she showed it to me, but I didn't get it until I actually sat her in a towel on my lap and saw the bloody discharge for myself and made sure it was coming from her vagina. She doesn't have any other symptoms, except that she is very talkative and wants to be with me. I was able to make a vet appointment for 1st thing in the morning, but I keep reading that it's expensive to have taken care of, even though I can't find any estimates (it's basically a careful emergency spay to avoid rupturing into the other organs, plus antibiotics and all that), and I honestly can't justify/afford to spend more than a few hundred dollars, especially right after Gencon, where I spent most of what I have extra. She is laying in my lap right now. She wants me to help her and I just have to wait until the morning just to probably decide that I have to put her down. It's all my fault for not getting her spayed sooner. I knew better, dammit and I didn't and now she is probably in pain and I'm going to have to put her down and it's all my fault. My heart hurts so bad, she is my baby and I've killed her. She's laying here in my lap and she's probably already dead. I just can't stop crying. (Comment on this)
Monday, August 17th, 2009
12:12 pm	Gencon Back from Gencon. Got a lot of out of print books I was looking for, plus some new ones, and some new versions of old games. Still didn't end up with a couple, but I'll look online now. I tell you, it's getting hard. We actually had scheduled events this year and I was SO freakin' tired and crabby. I don't tend to sleep well outside my house, so even when I was DIRT tired, I didn't get much sleep. Held out till 1am and finally crashed last night and got up at 11. I still have a headache. Hopefully work will be fine. Because of the events, I didn't really SEE anyone or hang out with anyone at the con, which was a bummer. But all in all, it was fun. I had a better time than I have in previous years. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 10th, 2009
3:14 am	Teh Sux Everyone seems to have caught the suck lately, or maybe it just feels like a dogpile from a bunch of stuff? I'm hella stressed-out and I'm trying to chill. And I'd like to take a bath, but it's still thunderstorming. I may anyhow, just because. With the malfunction at work tonight, I keep trying to tell myself there is nothing I could have done to prevent it, nothing I can do to FIX it, and that I only have to run it one more time this week (Monday) and then they are someone else's problem until next week after I get back from GC, and even then, if I have to crutch/babysit it, it'll just be for one night. I can't help that things don't get fixed. It's basically a combination issue that happens because: #1 It's a long movie, and the reels are warped. They get worse the longer a film is in duration, because of the weight distribution on the takeup reel. #2 Projector number 1 leaks (oil) like a dying, bleeding man (it probably is), all over the rollers that the film runs over. #3 Oil collects on film from rollers, which causes it to lay improperly on the takeup reel, eventually shutting off the projector, as either the reel gets stretched, scrapes and slows down, or the film falls off the reel. #4 Not sure if anyone bothers to wipe down the rollers except for me. I'm not in charge back there, SOOOOO NOT MY PROBLEM. But that being said, it leaks all the time, so you aren't going to catch it all, even if you do clean it. #5 We've been out of shop towels for...3 weeks now? I asked that they get me more and it hasn't happened. Those brown paper towels will NOT soak up oil/grease, it just wipes it around. I suppose I could go get some and ask to be reimbursed, but I shouldn't HAVE to. It really can't be fixed now, it can only be prevented. The print is SCA-REW-D. There is no way to take the excess oil off the print at our location. I keep asking for a film cleaner (It's a special roller that the film goes over), but am told that they "may not" attach to the projectors at the drive-in. This shit happened last year too, for the same reasons, so uhm...duh? It doesn't really affect what it looks like, but the sounds can get warbly in some spots. My boss is going to be super happy about it when I tell him or call him tomorrow, because he got a leak up in his office that filled up his electrical box and fried everything while he was still up there. You could totally smell the ozone. He's going to be in a great mood. They left before MY issue. Now I have to talk him into getting rid of it, ASAP. That's going to be interesting. DH got mad at a "policy" change that his manager made, his manager then signed out for vacation for a week, so no one could discuss it with him. It was sneaky and stupid. It's a mistake, the same one the manager has done before, and then he'll panic and do a 180, just making things WORSE. So, DH wrote a note back, and also sent it to his manager's boss and everyone else. On purpose, no less. It wasn't a BAD note, as notes go, but it wasn't very professional (It was kind of snarky), and I'm worried about what the retaliation for that will be. Note to self: When a manager says they WANT you to be able to be honest and bitch at them, they are lying. I REALLY wish his manager would retire. He looses customers and pisses off his employees for no gain. So I'm stressed about that, too. GI JOE wasn't that great. I was quite disappointed with it, actually, although there were a few things I really liked. I have a massive headache. AND THERE IS NOTHING TO EAT IN THIS...wait. I have custard. In the freezer. (Comment on this)
Friday, July 24th, 2009
9:28 pm	Warcraft Hmmm. Well, World of Warcraft. I'll be honest, I've done a pretty good job of NOT playing much of any MMO, let alone WoW. I played a couple hours while I was in a funk on DH's account just to remind myself how bad the game/community really is. AND it IS bad. Most online games really do feel like a huge time sucker. If I had a less addictive personality, I might be able to stomach it, but when I play, I usually get carried away. I've even cut back on LOTRO, which is quite casual friendly, and has an interface/community that I like, even if I DON'T care for the setting. So I was thinking, just out of amusement, what with WoW (And it's crappy continuity people) COULD interest me back? Here are some of my thoughts, in no particular order: 1.) An awesome roleplaying guild (Ok, this isn't a Bliz thing). 2.) Fun player housing. 3.) Now that they added achievements, I'd like to see the rare-drop cosmetic pets that you have to kill a certain mob to get ALSO be available just by killing X (high number) of said mob (once only, BOA would be fine). This was a huge source of futility for me. If the damn drop is something like 1 in 1000, just let me kill 1000 or whatever of the mob and get it instead of killing twice that and being subject to the evil RNG. Same with rare mounts and such. 4.) Worgen Alliance PCs, or some other kind of "feral" type race. 5.) Pandaren (Of either faction). 6.) More class pick diversity (I can understand not having the graphics for any other druid races except NE and Tauren cause of specific forms or shaman MAYBE because of the specific totems, but everything else would be fine. Don't give me "lore" excuses. You fudged that a long time ago, Bliz.). Specifically would like to see: a.) Human Hunters b.) Gnome Priests c.) Tauren Priests d.) Gnome Hunters (Just because it makes me LOL) e.) Tauren Paladins f.) Dwarf Mages 7.) Dragon race, Hah, but it would have to be like a hero class, like death knights are. You'd have to pick a flight-type, probably, would gain access to fast travel options through your "natural" form and would PROBABLY have restricted access to equipment types, but then again, Druids get equipment bonuses while polymorphed. Obviously can't mount while in "natural" form. The dragons in WoW are polymorphed all the damn time anyway, some hatchling types would be cool. Again, would have to be a class-type and not a race, persay (again, like death-knights). 8.) More quicker travel options. When I was last playing my priest, I realized how bad it sucked getting anywhere. The fact that they are offering mounts at a lower level now is a big improvement though. 9.) No more "limited time" awards for events, or make the awards Bind to Account and not to character. As cool as "opening" the gate and all that other stuff was, it ticks me off that I can no longer receive the neat items offered. 10.) No more "removing" rewards from achievements because you feel the content is "trivialized" by your overpowered additions to the game. 11.) Share unlocked pets/or mounts with all characters on the same server/faction. These are all things that made the game feel like work and not fun. Anyway, I just wanted to ramble. Cute little anthropomorphic game coming out this year that is FTP called Earth Eternal. I may try that, especially since it is NA based and not Chinese or Korean or anything. I used to be addicted to MMO launches, now I am just too burned out. Aion isn't even interesting me. The new Star Wars MMO will probably be cool, but like I said, not caring much about it right now. Ahh, MMOs, the only way to win is not to play. Back to drawing now, I think. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:22 am	Drawing So, I pulled out my notepad and started drawing today. First thing I've put to paper in months. Just kind of a landscape, not super realistic but not overly simplified, but detailed, and that's the kind of thing I like to do. The leaves on the tree are quite simplified, and they are too uniform, but it's relaxing. Maybe that's the trick, I just need to learn how to relax. I just need to remember that I'm not competing with anyone. I'm iffy on some of the textures. The tree textures are ok, but the rocks/bounders in the background look kind of off. I'm faking it. It's passable. Not bad for a "beginner"/"hobby artist" I guess. I miss it. I miss a lot of things that used to help my brain move. I've taken a lot of things away from myself in the hopes that I'll use my free time in a better way. It's taking awhile, but I hope I'll get there if I just don't give up. But I'm not BROKEN anymore. That's so important. I'm free and I'm waking up in a way I never knew I could. This year, with all it's pitfalls and fears, sorrows and roadblocks has still been the best since...well...ever. I'm HERE. It's such a weird feeling. So much going on lately...not good things. I'm trying to remain optimistic, and send good juju everyone's way. Hang in there. (Comment on this)
Friday, July 17th, 2009
4:26 am	Long Day Ended My long night is over. Movie previewed by the boys while I frustratedly rushed to tear down Public Enemies for the courier to pick up by 4 am. Feeling physically better today. I slept pretty good last night. Going to take a bath. I haven't had one in weeks because the drain kept leaking but that should be all done now. Mentally...I'm not sure. Aaron's (From LARPing) wife passed away a few days ago at the young age of 36. I didn't really get along that great with him, and we didn't socialize, and I didn't know his wife at all, but it's really, really bothering me, I mean, I think worse than my grandma dying a week and a half ago. Maybe it's because she was so young, or because I'm having my own health problems, or maybe just because it is really, really sad. She sounds like she was a fun lady and it's nice that people remember her so fondly. If someone has Aaron's address will they message it to me so I can send a card? Another person to add to my list of "I've never met you, but I think I miss you anyway." (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 16th, 2009
3:08 am	Crud I have the nastiest crud right now. I'm sure getting dehydrated, not sleeping and touching a ton of people this weekend at the event didn't help. Still worth it, but DAMN do I feel super-gross. I also made the mistake of closing at work tonight, so I am just getting home now. I figured if I wasn't able to sleep then at least I should be getting paid and make up for some of those nights I was off? I still think it was a mistake though. Tomorrow is going to be LOOOOONG. I have to preview and teardown movies, but only 2, and the guy I am training will be doing pretty much everything else. I hope I feel at least a little better or I am going to pass out tomorrow night. Pray for clouds so we can start early, meh? :D I am so miserable. Blech! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 9th, 2009
1:57 am	Jim Henson Been watching Jim Henson Memorial videos from Youtube, I find them very inspiring and full of love. It's hard for me to watch them without being so deeply moved. I grew up on the Muppets and they were so much a part of my mindset as anything else in the world. They still feel like family. Imagine a world where people and monsters coexist together, where a giant yellow bird can walk down the street and no one bats an eye, where a frog and a pig can be in love and there is nothing wrong with that. That's the world I always wanted to live in. Jim Henson made me believe in wonder and love. Big bird singing "it's not easy being green" just breaks my heart. I'm particularly fond of "Just One Person," both the Muppet tribute (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=olHV1o9TE-8&feature=related) and the one the performers sang as part of a medley of some of Jim's favorite songs (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Zzfdlxjx4Y&feature=related). The one with the performers is amazing because they have the puppets, and the puppets still just come alive. Also watched the clip from Sesame Street where the adults are trying to explain to Big Bird that Mr Hooper isn't coming back because he has died (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YZTvDZHRFrU). I don't really remember it, per say (I would have been four), but I remember Mr Hooper. My guess is that my mother wouldn't have let me watch it because she would have needed to "protect" me from the big bad ugly truth. It's pretty heart-wrenching. The actor died in real life (he was 74) and instead of just saying he "Went away" or "moved" or something, they confronted the subject, which I think was pretty amazing for the time, heck even for now. It must have been hard to do without bringing up religious concepts such as heaven or the afterlife, but they did. I wish more shows were more honest. I was also watching some sesame street clips with a CUTE kid named John-John and various muppets. They were hilarious. I LOVED the one where he asks Grover to count one penny ("Gwova, do you love me?"). I laughed my butt off at Joey and Kermit count to 11 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2-_JF1645w0&feature=related), she forgets what number is after 11 and instead tells Kermit he "Has pretty eyes." The "expression" on Kermit's face is hilarious. I look at those kid clips and realized how hard it must have been to get the kids to actually DO something specific-ish. But I like them that way, they are more natural feeling. I miss you, Jim. I miss you a lot. (Comment on this)
Friday, July 3rd, 2009
4:12 pm	So, stuff! LARP next weekend. I better make sure I have it off, but I should. I may play Delayne, but if I can pull off the costuming, I may do something else too. I want to do those huge stupid eyebrows like the night elfs in WoW have. The best advice I've gotten so far is to use feathers and trim them, but I'm not sure if I can keep them on with spirit gum. I guess I will have to try to find out. (Comment on this)
Monday, June 29th, 2009
12:57 am	Saw Transformers 2 So, I finally saw TF2 on Friday with the hubby. It was good enough, but I had a lot of problems with it. For one, I really, really disliked the decepticons talking English in scenes where there were no humans. I really wish they would have kept with the subtitled text for those scenes that they used for the 1st one. The scene with three "pivotal" decepticon characters all conversing in English seemed corny. I hated the "twins." I thought they were really annoying, stereotype characters. I also found them a little, well...offensive. I'm not quite sure how, I just can't put my finger on it. Also, no real plot or character development, just things exploding. Too much Sam and other humans, not enough robots. Nyway, gonna be a rough next couple of weeks, lots of hours at work. That's GOOD, I want the hours, but it's still a lot of evenings gone. I was supposed to work Sunday night, but I asked someone if they would cover for me, so I had the night off. It was sadly uneventful, but I feel like I got something out of my system by just slumming around the house. It was a junk-food week, too. Time to cut back to reasonable levels again. We made Derbyshire Renfaire today and I got some REALLY good buys. Not exactly anything I was looking for, but still some good deals for the prices. I got a chemise and over thing for $45, I was sure it wouldn't fit but it fits pretty great, I'm glad I tried it on. The chemise is actually a heavy-duty one, and although I can't imagine a character I have now that would wear it, it would actually hold up to LARP play, as opposed to the nice chemises, which I worry about tearing. Got a skirt and a top that totally don't match. Not sure how I feel about the top yet, it might need some minor modification or pinning for it to actually be wearable without being TOO baggy, but it was a steal too. I'd need a strapless under it though. Tried it without a bra and I think it's too transparent. Hehe. (1 Comment |Comment on this)